Good Evening Everyone,

I know a couple days have passed since my last blog. I am proud to say that I am making progress with my diet. I know in my previous blog, I mentioned that there were other things that inspired me to pursue my diet on a serious level. I was also motivated to loose weight when I received my ah ha moment. I was sitting in the couch watching Oprah Next Big Moment or whatever that show is called and I was watching the episode with Toni Robbins. During his seminar with a crowd of people, he said, "As humans, we are crowded with so much negativity and it deters us from our dreams. The reality is that we can do what we want to do. We can accomplish anything we want to accomplish, but we make so many excuses to stop us. Instead of saying I want to do this or I want to do that; say that I must and then just do it". And it was the truth. I always made excuses why I couldn't loose weight, but the reality was that I was too lazy to do it. I made the excuse that I was big boned, that I am fine this way I am, etc. When the reality was that I was lazy. I got up and I told myself, "Its no longer a matter of me wishing that I loose weight. I want to lose weight, I must loose weight. No hold barred." As humans beings, we tend to not give ourselves credit for our ability shaping our destiny. We have the the power to shape our destiny and to make our dreams come true, but we deny ourselves of that ability. I think that we do that because we do not want to take responsibility for our destiny because it will mean that we must work hard to accomplish it. This in turn will then mean that we are responsible for our actions. Take charge of your life and shape your destiny. By the way, I lost another two pounds, bringing my total to 5 lbs.

Grant me Serenity to Change...

As mentioned in my intro for this blog, my weight and self esteem is something that I have been struggling with for quite some time. However, I was not always this big. When I was born, I was born a pre-me, therefore I was very underweight for my age. My mother and people around me were always concerned about me being underweight. I remember while in pre-k, my teachers always gave me extra food and milk to walk with. As a child, my mother always gave me McDonalds to eat as well. She knew that it was unhealthy, however she was just glad that I was eating and gaining weight. My chunky chubby size kicked in at an early age of 8. Ever since then, people that I knew, both friends and family defined me by my weight.

Through out my high school years, I always felt insecure about my weight. I think that things really somewhat changed when I left my home in the Virgin Islands and moved to Miami, FL. In Florida, as superficial as place may be with everyone's infamous South Beach diet, I met a lot of people who didn't define me because of my weight and enjoyed my presence because of my personality and intelligence. Although this is true, I was still depress about my weight.

Due to my father falling ill, I returned home to the Virgin Islands. The last few month with my father was the closest I have ever been with him. I learned so much about him. I remember the last day I spoke to him, he was in the hospital, peacefully waiting to die as he relinquished his body to the afterlife I remember I prayed over his body and he looked up to me and nodded his head in approval, as though saying that he was proud of the woman that I've become. Right after that, I left to go to a job interview. After the interview, I returned to the hospital, my brothers were there and my mom told me that he just past as the pastor said "Amen" after praying over his body. I miss my father dearly and was worried and depress about how life will be like without him.

Today, I am at peace with my father's death. I've learned to overcome struggles, be tough and to take life on with nothing but hope and prayer. It was something that I've never done before; however, I was still FAT and all my new lessons that I've learned in life did not solve that issue. I tried many diet plans: Slim Fast, Adkins Diet, Liquid Diet, Detoxing Diet, Green Tea, Ignoring my diet, portioning my food...everything. They all yielded the same results... Disappointment.

At one point, I convinced myself that I would never loose weight, I will always be fat and this was just how it was. Still Depressed :(

Then one day while at work, I heard the girls at work talk about new diet fads (MediFast, Jenny Creg, etc). You see, my job which is in public safety communications is very stressful and we are often immobile; therefore almost all of us are over weight. I noticed that some of them were successful with their program while others made the conscious decision to invest in a diet regimen. My boss then told me about Herbalife. At first I was hesitant, it just seemed like another diet fad, but then I thought to myself, what the heck. Just do it.

Today, I lost 3 pounds and am still on my Herbalife diet. I eat less, am healthier and full of energy. I feel so filled with happiness. I am proud of the fact that I am sticking with this and I already started to see results. My pants are fitting me looser and I am eating more but healthier which is necessary for a healthy and stable metabolism. I'm doing it and so proud of myself.

So any of you readers may be asking, "How is it I couldn't do the other diets but I can do this one?" Well its not just the Herbalife. Yes its great and I am succeeding this far with the program ( my jeans are slacker and I lost 3 lbs ) but there is something else behind my decision to make the changes that I need and this time follow through....But the answer is reveled in my next blog. Thanks for reading